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MY FAMILY'S /ORY ( \R BATTLE ) ALCOHOL
ABUSE4 ,6R.D \ :AT WE'VE G"O "?1 &
65C\RAGE Y & YR FAMILY T[>D :OLE;S1 LET
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,! 5TIRE FAMILY BRAC$ XF1 "K+ H]
DEPLORA# 3DI;N CD N G ON 9DEF9ITELY4 ,:5
AN ALCOHOLIC RETR1TS F LIFE 6VIRTU,Y
NON/OP DR9K+1 ! 5D IS 9EVITABLY NE>4 ,0!
"T ,MOM'S DR9K+ R1*$ CRISIS PROPOR;NS1
%E _H A FL[] %OP4 ,B %E 0 SP5D+ V LL "T
"!2 X 0 MO/LY RUN 0H] EMPLOYEES4 ,:5
,*RIS & ,I WD DRIVE PA/ MY P>5TS' HOME
DUR+ ! "D X WD SEEM 6U L AN ALCOHOL-
HAUNT$ H\SE4 ,E %ADE 0 PULL$ D[N1 !
CURTA9S 7 CLOS$1 &! DOORS 7 %UT & LOCK$4
  ,MOM'S ISOL,N 0 A CRY = HELP--T 0 V
CLE> 6SEE4
  ,AT ? "T1 %E 0 DR9K+ NE>LY A QU>T (
VODKA A "D6 ,LAT]1 AF WE _H =CIBLY
-MITT$ H] 6A RECOV]Y UNIT1 ,*RIS1 & MY
BRO!RS' WIVES W5T 6CL1N ,MOM & ,DAD'S
H\SE F TOP 6BOTTOM4 ,0! "T !Y _H ?R[N !
LA/ BOTTLE 9 A TRA% C1 X 0 FILL$ 6!
BRIM6 ,LIQUOR BOTTLES 7 F.D "EY":--IN !
CLOSET1 9 ! DRESS]1 2H FURNITURE1 "U !
B$1 ETC4
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RECLUSE1 EXI/+ 9 "S D>K CAVE4 ,?REE
SIGNS1 AM;G O!RS1 T SIGNAL$ 6ME T ,MOM 0
ON H] LA/ LEG 7 ISOL,N1 B+E DR9K+1 & N
/OPP+ 6EAT4 ,P :O H DRAMATIC DI6];ES 9
_! EAT+ & SLEEP+ PATT]NS1 >E OBVI\SLY
SIGNAL+ T "S?+ IS CRITIC,Y WR;G4 ,I ?9K
,MOM 0 BASIC,Y 8\ ( X0 MO/ (! "T 9 ^?
"DS4 ,MR4 ,ALCOHOL 0 MANIPULAT+ H] L A
PUPPET ON A /R+4
  ,"EY"O 9 ! FAMILY ALW GOT TGR = ALL !
MAJOR HOLI"DS-8,?ANKSGIV+1 ,*RI/MAS1 &!
SMALL KIDS' BIR?"DS--AT ,DAD & ,MOM'S
H\SE4 ,I HATE 6ADMIT X1 B ,I DR1D$ ^?
GET-TGRS1 "PICUL>LY :5 ,MOM 0 ON ! LA/
LAP ( H] SPIRAL D[N4 ,X 0 HORRI#4 ,WE
ALL KNEW %E 0 9 TR\#1 B WE W]5'T DO+
ANY?+4 ,OR S ,I ?"\4
  ,AF \R 3F];E )A M$ICAL C5T]'S ALCOHOL-
RECOV]Y DIRECTOR1 WE ALL FELT \R 85ABL+0
-IGNOR+-RESPONSE 0 OV]4
  ,"O ( MY BRO!RS _H R1D ,BETTY ,=D'S
BOOK TRACK+ H] [N VICTORY OV]
ALCOHOLISM4 ,>M$ ) M EVID;E T WE _H 6D
"S?+1 WE HELD SECRET MEET+S 64CUSS !
PRO#M4
  ,^! 3F];ES CAME 6! AGONIZ+ 3CLU.N T WE
%D =CIBLY -MIT ,MOM 6! RECOV]Y UNIT (
,BAPTI/ ,HOSPITAL4 ,MY MOM IS A /R;G
LADY1 ! "M ( FIVE1 :O _H BE5 DR9K+ =
YE>S4 ,WE KNEW %E 0 N GO+ 6PL1SANTLY
WALK 96! C>E UNIT & -MIT H]F 6A TW5TY-
EI<T-"D RESID5TIAL PROGRAM4 ,WE KNEW WE
WD H 6ABDUCT H]6 ,PLANN+ 6KIDNAP YR [N
"M IS A V 9T]E/+ EXP]I;E4 ,:51 ":1 H[--&
:AT IF "S?+ W5T WR;G8
  ,DAD 0 V UNEASY4 ,8 PRAY]-ORI5T$
APPROA* 6,MOM'S DELIV].E LEFT LL ROOM =
ABDUC;N & =C$ ADMIS.N4 ,H["E1 ! FIVE ( U
BOYS IMMLY OV]RUL$ & SIL;ED HM4
  ,AWAK5$ 6H[ L;G WE _H D"O NO?+1 "! 0
NO TURN+ BACK N[4
  ,2C ,I [N$ A L;G1 CU/OMIZ$ VAN1 MY
VEHICLE 0 SELECT$4 ,WE ALL FELT EQU,Y T
WE _H 6MOVE IMMLY4 ,\R /RATEGY 0 SIMPLE4
,WE WD G 6,DAD & ,MOM'S HOME ,FRI"D NI<T
AT #G ,P4M4 7,0-MITT+ ,MOM ON A ,FRI"D
NI<T ) \R SIGNATURES1 ! HOSPITAL CD HOLD
H] OV] ! WEEK5D UNTIL %E CD 2 ASSESS$ 0A
DOCTOR Z 6H] ALCOHOLISM47
  ,WE SIGN$ ,MOM 9 =A FULL TW5TY-EI<T-"D
/AY4 ,%E / REMEMB]S E DETAIL ( T
EPISODE3 8,I WDN'T SP1K 6,J]RY10 %E N[
RECALLS4 8,I WDN'T SP1K 6ANY (! BOYS =
AB TWO WEEKS4 ,_M "TS1 ,I WD WALK 6!
ELEVATOR & J LOOK AT X1 ?9K+ X WD 2 GRT
6GET \ ( "!4 ,!N "O (! NURSES WD WALK 0&
SAY1 ,8,DON'T EV5 ?9K AB X2 DON'T EV5
LOOK AT ! ELEVATOR400' ,MOM 0 HUMILIAT$
0! ABDUC;N1 &! PA9 & TRAUMA = H] &= ALL
( U FAMILY MEMB]S (T5 SEEM$ Z IF X WD
N"E 5D--T X CD N"E 5D4 ,B !N1 MY "M _H A
HUSB& :O WDN'T GIVE UP4

    ,HE ,WDN'T ,QUIT ,2LIEV+
  ,MY REMEMBR.ES ( ,MOM *A9$ 6ALCOHOLISM
>E LIMIT$1 2C ,I 0 J "O ( FIVE SONS4 ,MY
DAD LIV$ )! PRO#M E "D & E NI<T4 ,& HE
N"E /OPP$ 2LIEV+ ,GOD CD *ANGE ,MOM'S
LIFE & GIVE H] -PLETE VICTORY OV] H]
A4IC;N4
  ,JOHN ,W4 ,JOHN/ON IS A MAN ( UNUSUAL
P]SONAL 4CIPL9ES4 ,I SUPPOSE M* ( MY
P]SONAL SECUR;Y & 3FID;E -ES F ! FACT T
,DAD IS "EY?+ ,I WANT 6BE4 ,EV5 6? "D1
:5 ,I H A MAJOR PRO#M OR NE$ DIREC;N ON
A DECI.N1 ,I G 6,DAD4
  ,WE TALK TGR & PRAY TGR4
  ,DAD R1DS 8 ,BI# "? E "O HUNDR$ "DS--
FIVE *APT]S 9 ! MORN+1 T5 AT NI<T1 &
TW5TY ON ,SUN"D6 ,E YE>1 HE HAS R1D !
,BI# ?REE &A HALF "TS4 ,E MORN+ ,DAD
PRAYS 2F HE L1VES ! H\SE4
  ,& HE FEELS HE M/ PRAY ON 8 KNEES4 ,HE
DOES ? E "D4
  ,OR1 6USE 8 ^WS1 8,A 4CIPL9E IS "S?+ Y
D E "D )\T FAIL40
  ,IF ,I %[ UP AT MY P>5TS' H\SE & 8
8R1D+0 =! "D IS N -PLET$1 HE DOESN'T -E
D[N UNTIL X IS4 ,& ,I "U/&6
  ,"? ! UPS & D[NS ( MY MOM'S PRO#M1
,DAD N"E /OPP$ LOV+ & 2LIEV+4 ,HE 0 ALW
"!1 5C\RAG+ ,MOM1 G5TLY REM9D+ H] ( H]
REL,N%IP 6,GOD & H] RESPONSIBIL;Y 6H]
FAMILY4
  ,MOM CD 2 A TIG] ON ! BOTTLE6 ,B ,DAD
0 ALW "!4 ,I US$ 6?9K MY DAD 0 AN 5A#R4
,I'VE *ANG$ MY M9D4 ,DAD 2LIEV$ ALL AL;G
T ,GOD CD *ANGE ,MOM'S LIFE4 ,& "?
PRAY]1 & PRAY] AL"O1 ,DAD 0 -MITT$ 6T
GOAL4 ,:5 WE ABDUCT$ ,MOM1 HE 0
RELUCTANT4 ,:5 ,MOM RELAPS$1 HE 0 QUIET
& LOOK$ ,GODW>D4
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6\R PRAY]S1 & D "S?+4 ,I 0 UPSET & MY
HO/IL;Y 0 EVID5T4 ,DAD QUIETLY 3T9U$
6LOOK 6! ,"L4 ,HE 2LIEV$1 TRULY 2LIEV$1
,GOD CD "W ! IMPOSSI#4
  ,I H (T5 ?"\1 "? \R ORD1L ) ,MOM1 H[
_M M ALCOHOLICS1 DRUG A4ICTS1 &
TRAUMATIZ$ P CD 2 R1*$ IF !Y _H 9 _!
LIVES A TRUE 2LIEV] & PRAY] P]SON L
,DAD4
  ,AF \R =C$ ABDUC;N ( ,MOM & H]
SUBSEQU5T RELAPSE1 %E W5T D[NHILL FA/4
,F ,AUGU/ 6,M>* ( T YE>1 ?+S GOT V BL1K4
,MOM 2CAME A PRISON] 9 H] [N H\SE4 ,%E
/OPP$ GO+ 6H] FL[] %OP ALM 5TIRELY4 ,H]
DR9K+ GOT \ ( 3TROL4

    ,BROK5;S & ,H1L+
  ,AT T SAME "T1 ,I PHYSIC,Y COLLAPS$ 9
,W9/ON-,SALEM1 ,NOR? ,C>OL9A1 DUR+ A
WEEK ( SP1K+ 9 ALL ! HI< S*OOLS1 )A
CULM9AT+ R,Y AT ,MEMORIAL ,COLISEUM )
SEV5 ?\S& P4
  ,I _H G"O TOO H>D = TOO L;G T YE>1
SP1K+ #DAJ "TS ALL OV] ! N,N4 ,X TOOK ME
MON?S 6GET MY /R5G? BACK4 ,& ? EXP]I;E 0
SOV]EIGNLY US$ 0,GOD 6DRAW ME CLOSE
6,HMF4 ,! ,"L US$ ? "T 6BR1K ME & MAKE
ME DEP5D5T ^U ,HM 9 A NEW & FRE% WAY4
,REM9D$ ( MY [N _SUAL RESPONSIBILITIES1
,I />T$ F]V5TLY 9T]C$+ = ,MOM 9 MY
BASE;T /UDY EA* MORN+--:ILE ,DAD 0 DO+ !
SAME4
  ,I S5S$ ,I _H "UG"O A _SUAL CL1NS+ &
OV]HAUL4 ,RENEW$ & 9VIGORAT$1 ,I _H A
M.TA9-L FAI? 6WRE/LE ) ,GOD 9 PRAY]4
,T'S :5 ,I 4T9CTLY REMEMB] PRAY+ T
DANG]\S PRAY]1 8,GOD1 D :AT"E ,Y H 6D
6GET ,MOM'S ATT5;N1 6%[ H] ,Y LOVE H]1 &
C FREE H]40
  ,*RIS KNEW ! RAMIFIC,NS ( :AT ,I 0
PRAY+1 & REM9D$ ME (! S]I\S;S ( X4 ,MY
BASE;T /UDY IS A GLORI\S PLACE4 ,BOOKS
ON E WALL 9SULATE X S X IS ALM NOISE.S4
,I 5JOY HAV+ MY DEVO;NS "!1 2C NO "O C
HE> ME4 ,I FEEL TOT,Y UN9HIBIT$4 ,GOD IS
"! ) ME 9 T /UDY4 ,HE HELP$ ME SEE T MY
PHYSICAL COLLAPSE AT MY GRTE/ PO9T ( NE$
0 ALL 9 ,8 PLAN4
  ,\R PRAY]S = ,MOM 9T5SIFI$4
  ,UN"KN 6U1 ,MOM />T$ BLE$+ 9T]N,Y4
,0,M>*1 %E 0 ALM B$RI454 ,%E DIDN'T SAY
A ^W1 B %E _H 6BE SC>$4 ,( C\RSE1 WE
DIDN'T EV5 "K %E 0 LOS+ BLOOD1 UNTIL MY
DAD CALL$ A REGI/]$ NURSE 6! H\SE4 ,%E 0
S TAK5 ABACK 0,MOM'S YELL[I% COLOR+ %E
CALL$ A DOCTOR & BE7$ HM 6-E 6! H\SE4 ,!
DOCTOR1 AT ,MOM'S B$SIDE ON T ,FRI"D1
TOLD H] %E NE$$ 6BE RU%$ 6! HOSPITAL4
,MOM RESI/$ & SD %E WD G ,MON"D4 ,HE
ANSW]$ T %E WD 2 D1D 0,MON"D IF %E
WAIT$4
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(! H\SE 6AN AWAIT+ AMBUL.E4 ,WAT*+ T
SC5E1 MY AW;L PRAY]--,D :AT"E ,Y NE$ TO1
,GOD1 6GET ,MOM'S ATT5;N--WAS E*O+ 9 MY
M9D4
  ,DIAGNOS$ AT ! HOSPITAL1 %E 0 PLAC$ 9
! 9T5SIVE C>E UNIT4 ,UNMOV$1 ,DAD
QUIETLY 3T9U$ 6LOOK 6,GOD4
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& G 6,ATLANTA1 ,GEORGIA 6SP1K 9 E HI<
S*OOL 9 ,COBB ,C.TY--6M ?AN TW5TY ?\S&
/UD5TS 9 FIVE "DS4 ,EA* NI<T ,I 0 6SP1K
AT ! L>GE ,ROSWELL ,/REET ,BAPTI/ ,*UR*
9 ,M>IETTA1 : S1TS F\R ?\S&4 ,DR4
,NELSON ,PRICE IS ! PA/OR ( ? HI<LY
RESPECT$ ,ATLANTA 3GREG,N4 ,WEEKLY1 HE
SP1KS 6N ONLY ,COBB ,C.TY'S MOV]S &
%AK]S1 B 6! 5TIRE C;Y VIA *ANNEL #AA1 :
C>RIES 8 MESSAGE LIVE EA* ,SUN"D MORN+4
  ,I DON'T "K :AT X 0 AB ,NELSON ,PRICE
T DREW ME 6BE S 3FID5TIAL & H"O/ ) HM4
,I TRULY 2LIEV$ HE 0 A MAN ( FAI? & KNEW
H[ 6PRAY4 ,DUR+ \R GRUEL+ WEEK TGR1 WE
SP5T "T TALK+ & GETT+ 6"K "O ANO!R4
  ,W$NES"D NI<T AT D9N] ) ,NELSON1 8
WIFE ,TRUDY1 & ,*RIS1 ,I BROKE D[N CRY+1
& BLURT$ \1 8,NELSON1 MY MOM'S AN
ALCOHOLIC4 ,%E'S 9 ! HOSPITAL DY+4 ,"SH[
,I HAV5'T R1*$ H]40
  ,9/1D ( SEEM+ %OCK$1 ,NELSON CALMLY
SD1 8,J]RY1 ,GOD LOVES YR MOM & ,GOD
WANTS 6H1L H]4 ,LET'S PRAY "R N[ T ,GOD
W T\* H] & *ANGE H]40
  ,WELL1 ,I C]TA9LY WANT$ 62LIEVE X CD
ALL HAPP5 T MATT]-(-FACTLY1 B MY LOGICAL
M9D & YE>S ( 5DUR+ ? SAD SAGA SD1
IMPOSSI#4 ,I PASS$ (F ,NELSON'S
SIMPLI/IC ANTIDOTE1 BLAM+ 8 LACK ( K Z
6! 9T5S;Y (! PRO#M4
  ,MY FAI? 0 S SMALL T NI<T4 ,I 0 RUN
D[N F GO+ "D & NI<T T WEEK4 ,MY S*$ULE 0
S TI<T WE EV5 _H 6TAKE "O (! ,,TV /,N'S
HELICOPT]S F S*OOL 6S*OOL4 ,YET X 0 M
?AN FATIGUE T _H WORN ME D[N4 ,I 0
UNBELIEV+4
  ,I ANSW]$ ,NELSON'S SU7ES;N Q
ME*ANIC,Y T NI<T4
  8,OKAY1 W Y PRAY80 ,I SD4 ,NELSON TOOK
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NO D\BT 8 FAI? 0 9 P]FECT UNISON )
,DAD'S4 ,NELSON'S PRAY] 0 SPECIFIC2 HE
ASK$ ,GOD 6-PLETELY DELIV] ,MOM4
  ,MY MOM HAS N"E _H A DROP ( ALCOHOL
S9CE1 EV5 ?\< S"EAL YE>S H PASS$4 ,I /
C'T GET OV] X4 ,S _M "TS ,MOM HAS SD
6ME1 8,J]RY1 9 ! HOSPITAL ,GOD TOOK !
DESIRE AWAY60
  ,MOM HAS SD %E IS N EV5 TEMPT$ 6DR9K
N[4 ,9 T HOSPITAL1 \R MIRACLE CAME4 ,& X
0 R1L4 ,! DI6];E 9 MY "M N[ IS
9EXPRESSI#4 ,%E HAS SD T ! ?"\S ( H] OLD
SELF >E L WAT*+ OLD BLACK-&-:ITE MOVIES4
  ,DAD /OOD TRUE1 & ,I H WAT*$ ,GOD B.S
8 OB$I;E4 ,HE & ,MOM >E L NEW LOV]S4 ,_!
REL,N%IP IS BR& NEW4
  ,IF ,GOD C *ANGE MY MOM1 ,HE C *ANGE
YR LOV$ "O4
  ,2LIEVE6

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  ,MOM1 SET FREE F ! BONDAGE ( ALCOHOL1
0 QKLY GR[+ 9 H] FAI? & FREEDOM4 ,EA*
MON? ,I CD SEE ! TRANS=M+1 MATUR+ DI6];E
9 H] LIFE4 ,I WAIT$ TWO YE>S 2F ,I />T$
TALK+ 6H] AB WRIT+ A BOOK ON ! ALCOHOL
DILEMMA 3FRONT+ Y\? & P>5TS1 & MY DESIRE
69TEGRATE H] /ORY 96! BOOK4
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WD 5TAIL4
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6BROA* ! SUBJECT 6H]4 ,MY HESITANCY 0 9
! NEW;S ( TALK+ AB ! -PLETE VICTORY &
FREEDOM ,GOD _H GIV5 ,MOM OV] ! BOTTLE4
  ,H["E1 ,I KNEW T ! ,JOHN/ON FAMILY _H
G"O "? ? TAX+1 L;G TRIAL =A R1SON4 ,I
FIRMLY 2LIEVE T ALL ?+S "W TGR = GD
7,ROMANS #H3BH74 ,B ,I 0 AW>E T 6,MOM X
0 A V NEW ?+ 6OP5LY ADMIT T %E 0 & IS A
RECOV]+ ALCOHOLIC4 ,OBVI\SLY1 ! 8:AT-W-
P-?9K0 FE> 9ITI,Y SET IN4 ,H["E1 :5 ,I
F9,Y SUMMON$ ! C\RAGE 6SU7E/ X1 ,MOM 0 M
?AN WILL+ 65DURE ANY EMB>RASS;T 6R1* \
6O!RS VICTIMIZ$ 0A4IC;NS4
  ,I FLEW 96,KANSAS ,C;Y AF SP1K+ AT !
,FELL[%IP ( ,*RI/IAN ,A?LETES N,NAL
3V5;N 9 ,9DIANAPOLIS1 & ,MOM PICK$ ME UP
AT ! AIRPORT4 ,X 0 A BRILLIANTLY SUNNY
MORN+4 ,WE W5T 6EAT LUN* AT \R FAVORITE
RE/AURANT4 8,IF X W HELP P :O >E L ,I
WAS10 0 H] REPLY4 ,WE LAU<$ & TALK$ T "D
M L BE/ FRS ?AN "M & SON4 ,) ALCOHOL
REMOV$ F ,MOM'S LIFE1 %E IS S* A
RADIAT+1 SWEET P]SON4 ,I CAU;N$ H] T A
BOOK WD H WIDE CIRCUL,N4 8,"EY"O W "K4
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W HELP "S"O1 YES6 ,B :Y WD ANY"O C>E :AT
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SELF.S %E WAS4

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  ,PLANN+ =! REL1SE ( ? BOOK1 ,I DECID$
6A3EPT AN 9VIT,N = N ONLY MYF1 B AL =
,MOM 6APPE> ON A ,,TV %[ TAP$ 9
,TORONTO1 ,CANADA4 ,? WD 2 ,MOM'S F/
,,TV %[ 6%>E H] DELIV].E F ALCOHOL4
,ORIG9,Y1 ! GUE/ COORD9ATOR (! %[ _H
S*$UL$ U 6APPE> ,MON"D1 ,JANU>Y #BE4
,LAT]1 H["E1 ! DATE (! 9T]VIEW 0 PO/PON$
6,W$NES"D1 ,MAY #CJ1 : CO9CID5T,Y 0
,MOM'S FIFTY-SIX? BIR?"D4 ,I N[ "K :Y !
DATE 0 *ANG$6
  ,DUR+ H] ?REE-YE> -EBACK F ALCOHOL1
,MOM WD H 9T]MITT5T SPELLS ( BLE$+
9T]N,Y1 LOS+ SIGNIFICANT AM.TS ( BLOOD4
,EA* "T1 WE HOSPITALIZ$ H] &1 L A C> \ (
GAS1 !Y WD FILL H] BACK UP ) BLOOD
0S"EAL TRANSFU.NS4 ,2C ( LIV] DEG5],N
BR"\ ON 0! YE>S ( EXCESSIVE AM.TS (
ALCOHOL1 ,MOM'S VISC]\S VE9S WD DRA/IC,Y
HEMORRHAGE4 ,BLOOD WD ESCAPE 6H] /OMA* &
X 0 N UNCOMMON T %E WD VOMIT EXT5SIVE
AM.TS ( BLOOD4 ,? PRO#M IS V -MON 9
ALCOHOLICS4 ,H] DOCTOR WANT$ 6P]=M
SURG]Y 6RER\TE BLOOD CIRCUITRY 6& F !
LIV]1 ?US REL1S+ ! PRESSURE ON ! VISC]\S
VE9S4
  ,=A L;G "T1 ,MOM _H =BI45 S* SURG]Y4
,B %E F9,Y 3C$$ & ALL[$ H] ,KANSAS ,C;Y
DOCTOR 6SCOPE H] VE9S 9 ! ESOPHAGUS &
P]=M SCL]OSIS1 A PROCESS 9 : ! VISC]\S
VE9S >E 9JECT$ )A S1LANT 9 AN ATTEMPT
6PREV5T FUR!R HEMORRHAG+4 ,! PROC$URE
W5T V WELL4 ,B AL? WE ?"\ ALL 0 SAFE1 WE
7 ACTU,Y H1D$ =A H>R[+ %[D[N4
  ,ON ,TUES"D1 ,MAY #BI1 WE FLEW F
,KANSAS ,C;Y 6,TORONTO4
  ,T NI<T ,I SPOKE D[NT[N4 ,MOM & ,I
5JOY$ A M1L 2F ! MEET+4 ,WE LEFT !
AUDITORIUM & GOT 6! HOTEL LATE4 ,I GOT
,MOM SETTL$ 9 H] ROOM4 ,! NEXT MORN+1 !
,,TV %['S GUE/ COORD9ATOR CAME E>LY 6!
HOTEL 6EAT BR1KFA/ ) U4 ,MOM CALL$ MY
ROOM & ,I 5C\RAG$ H] 6G ON D[N 6!
RE/AURANT & 2G9 EAT+ ) HM4
  ,0! "T ,I GOT 6! TA#1 ,MOM &!
COORD9ATOR _H GOTT5 ACQUA9T$ & G"O OV]
"S (! PROC$URES =! TAP+4
  ,I 0 N]V\S T ! ,,TV %[ MI<T 2 TOO M*
/RA9 = ,MOM2 B :5 WE />T$ ! 9T]VIEW1 %E
SURPRIS$ ME6 ,CALMLY & S9C]ELY %E ANSW]$
E "Q ) POISE & CL>;Y4
  ,MOM %>$ H] RES5T;T AT ! "T ( \R
ABDUC;N & =C$ ADMIS.N 96! HOSPITAL'S
RECOV]Y PROGRAM4 ,%E MADE CLE> ! AGONY (
LIFE DEP5D5T ON A BOTTLE &! REL1SE :5
,GOD 8TOOK ! DESIRE AWAY40
  ,H] G5U9E;S N ONLY CAPTUR$ ! AUDI;E ON
! SET1 B AL ^? :O WAT*$ ! %[4 ,I 0 AMAZ$
AT ! RAPPORT %E E/ABLI%$ S QKLY )!
AUDI;E1 &! SIMPLIC;Y ) : %E CR$IT$ H]
-EBACK & AB/9;E 6! ,CR1TOR4 ,%E 2CAME A
POSITIVE 9SPIR,N 6ALL ^? / /RU7L+ =
FREEDOM4
  ,H] MESSAGE 0 N "O ( 3DEMN,N1 B C>+1
PRAY];L PATI;E = ALL P 62LIEVE 9 ,GOD'S
PLAN =! TRAUMATIZ$ "O 9 _! FAMILIES4 ,X
O3URR$ 6ME T ? IS :AT TRUE FAI? IS3
2LIEV+ ,GOD =! IMPOSSI# CASE WE "K4 ,N"E
9 ALL ^? L;G YE>S ( ,MOM'S ALCOHOLISM WD
,I H 2LIEV$ T %E WD 2 ON A ,,TV %[1
SOB]1 GIV+ ,GOD ALL ! GLORY6 ,GOD DIDN'T
HONOR MY FAI?--,HE HONOR$ MY DAD'S FAI?
& T5AC;Y 6N QUIT 2LIEV+ 9 ! MIRACLE (
TRANS=M,N = ,MOM4
  ,! DRIV] DROPP$ U (F AT ! ,TORONTO
AIRPORT AB SIXTY M9UTES 2F \R DE"P+
FLI<T1 S ,MOM & ,I _H PL5TY ( "T 6CLE>
CU/OMS & BO>D ! PLANE4 ,I SU7E/$ WE G 6!
AIRPORT RE/AURANT =A QK LUN*4 ,!
RE/AURANT 0 R FULL & ,MOM SEEM$ 4TANT4
,I 9HAL$ MY LUN* & _H J 2GUN MY PECAN
PIE :5 ,MOM SD %E FELT QU1SY4 ,%E /OOD
UP 6L1VE =! RE/ROOM--B H] DIZZI;S 0 S
VISI# ,I 5C\RAG$ H] SIT BACK D[N4
  ,SU45LY1 %E />T$ FURI\SLY VOMIT+ "S?+
R$4 ,X 0 BLOOD--& X 0 "EY":4 ,X COV]$ !
TA#4 ,IMMLY ,I /OOD AT H] SIDE1 SC>$
6D1?1 ?9K+ T ? CDN'T 2 HAPP5+6 ,I KEPT
WIP+ ,MOM'S BLOODY *91 HOLD+ H] H& &
TALK+ 6H]4 ,AMAZ+LY1 "EY"O J />$ & DID
NO?+6
  ,I RAN 6! CA%I] & BE7$ H] 6CALL A
P>AM$IC UNIT4
  ,RAC+ BACK 6,MOM1 ,I NOTIC$ T H] EYES
DIDN'T SEEM 6BE FOCUS+4 ,BLOOD 0 ALL OV]
H] LI<T TAN COAT & GRE5 DRESS4 ,I 3T9U$
RU2+ H] H&1 TELL+ H] 6HOLD ON4 ,A ,ROYAL
,CANADIAN ,M.T$ ,POLICE (FIC] /ROLL$ BY4
,I SCR1M$ AT HM 6GET ON ! WALKIETALKIE 9
8 H& & D "S?+4 ,0N[1 ! :OLE RE/AURANT 0
OBS]V+ \R E MOVE4
  ,:5 ! P>AM$IC >RIV$1 HE QKLY GOT ,MOM
6! FLOOR4 ,I KNEW %E 0 BLE$+ 6D1?1 & :5
H] EYES FIX$ WIDE OP51 ALM ! SIZE (
QU>T]S1 ,I REMEMB] PRAY+1 ,OH1 ,GOD1
DON'T LET H] DIE6 ,MOM'S BLOOD PRESSURE
_H PLUMMET$4
  ,ON OXYG51 &) TWO ,,IV'S IMMLY 9S]T$ 9
! BACKS ( H] H&S1 %E />T$ 6RECOV]4 ,!N
%E SD1 8,WE C / CAT* ! PLANE1 ,J]RY40
,%E :ISP]$ %E 0 AFRAID %E WD RU9 MY
S*$ULE =! WEEK4
  ,"H AG ,I SAW J H[ B1UTI;L & LOVELY MY
MOM IS4 ,AT D1?'S DOOR1 AF VOMIT+ S M*
BLOOD T WE LE>N$ LAT] H] HEMOGLOB9 C.T 0
A M]E #D.E 7#AD IS NORMAL = WOM57--%E 0
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  ,) ME RID+ 9 ! FRONT1 ! AMBUL.E RAC$
6,ETIBICOKO ,G5]AL ,HOSPITAL 9 NE>BY
,REXDALE1 ,ONT>IO4 ,AF *ECK+ ,MOM 91 !
EM]G5CY-ROOM DOCTOR SD %E NE$$ 6/AY & 2
TR1T$ & C>E;LLY OBS]V$ = S"EAL "DS4

    ,EM]G5CY
  ,I LEFT ! HOSPITAL AT #D ,PM4 ) ,JEFF
,B]G51 MY ASSOCIATE1 9T5D+ ON RETURN+ AT
SEV5 6SP5D ! EV5+ AT ,MOM'S B$SIDE4 ,!Y
TOLD ME 0! "T ,I RETURN$1 ,MOM WD 2 9
ROOM #AJDF4
  ,?REE H\RS LAT]1 ,I HURRI$ 96ROOM
#AJDF--& F.D A D1D MAN 9 ! B$6 ,A NURSE
QKLY S5T ME BACK 6! EM]G5CY >EA4 ,MOM _H
/>T$ BLE$+ AG1 &! DOCTOR TOLD ME T H]
3DI;N 0 LIFE-?R1T5+4 ,IF !Y CD N GET !
BLE$+ /OPP$1 %E WD DIE4 ,!N ,I 0 U%]$
-PLETELY \ (! EM]G5CY ROOM 96! WAIT+
>EA4 ,MY M9D RAC$ BACK 6! -;T ,MOM _H
MADE 6ME %ORTLY 2F ,I LEFT H] AT F\R T
AFN4 8,IF ANY?+ HAPP5S1 ,I WANT 6BE
CREMAT$1 ,J]RY10 %E'D SD4
  ,I REBUK$ H] = EV5 SU7E/+ ! ?"\ ( D1?4
  8,Y N"E "K1 ,J]RY10 %E SD4
  ,)9 M9UTES1 ,MOM 0 2+ RU%$ \ (!
EM]G5CY >EA 6A WAIT+ AMBUL.E 6BE
TRANSF]R$ 6! ,TORONTO ,G5]AL ,HOSPITAL
D[NT[N4
  ,I FOLL[$ H] /RET*]1 ALM JO7+ 6KEEP
UP1 & 0 TAK5 ABACK AT H[ BAD %E LOOK$4
,%E 0 %IV]+ Z ?\< %E 7 9 A BLIZZ>D2 H]
BODY _H />T$ SWELL+4 8,MOM1 ,I'M "R "H )
Y4 ,I'M N GO+ ANY":2 ,I'LL 2 "H = Y10 ,I
SD1 ATTEMPT+ 63SOLE H]1 B "K+ ,I 0 />+
96! FACE ( D1?4
  ,A T1M ( NURSES &A DOCTOR SCRUN*$ 96!
AMBUL.E ) ,MOM--8TUBES1 WIRES1 & BLOOD &
,,IV BAGS SWUNG F RACKS OV] _! H1DS Z !
VEHICLE'S DOORS CLOS$ & X RAC$ AWAY4
  ,Z ,I /OOD "! AL"O1 "U ! RO( (!
EM]G5CY RCVG >EA1 ,I %OV$ MY H&S 9 MY
POCKETS & FELT ! BUSI;S C>D (A MAN :O _H
BE5 9 ! RE/AURANT :5 ,MOM _H COLLAPS$
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HOV]$ OV] ,MOM & ASK$1 8,>E Y ,J]RY
,JOHN/ON80
  8,YES10 ,I REPLI$ T]SELY4
  8,I AM ,JOHN1 ! PA/OR (A *UR* NE>BY4
,IF ,I C HELP 9 ANY WAY1 PL1SE CALL40
  ,9 ! *AOS (! MO;T1 ,I _H CRAMM$ ! C>D
DEEP 96MY POCKET & RESPOND$ )A W1K 8?ANK
Y0 Z ,I HURRI$ AWAY1 ASSI/+ ! P>AM$ICS 9
GETT+ ,MOM \ (! AIRPORT & 6! HOSPITAL4
  ,X 0 LAT] T NI<T1 AF ,I _H CALL$ ,JOHN
& ASK$1 8,W Y -E80 T ,I LE>N$ ! /R5G? T
CD -E F A ,*RI/IAN BRO!R4 ,JOHN HELD ME
UP1 5C\RAG$ ME1 & MO/ IMPORTANTLY1 PRAY$
) ME4 ,GOD _H PLANT$ ,JOHN 9 T AIRPORT
RE/AURANT AT T EXACT "T4 ,ALL ?+S D "W
TGR = GD4
  ,AT #A3CJ ,A4,M41 ,JOHN & ,I 7 H1D$
T[>D D[NT[N ,TORONTO ,G5]AL ,HOSPITAL4
,! DOCTOR "! 9=M$ ME 9 ! WAIT+ ROOM T !Y
CD N /OP ! BLE$+4 ,Z ?\< HE 7 WRE/L+ )A
TIG]1 HE _H _H 6=CE A TUBE D[N ,MOM'S
M\?1 ?ROAT1 & ESOPHAGUS1 )\T ANY SED,N1
6BL[ UP A BALLOON 9 H] /OMA* 6PUT
PRESSURE ON ! BLE$+ VE9S 9 HOPES !Y WD
/OP HEMORRHAG+4 ,Z A RESULT1 %E _H "S:AT
/ABILIZ$2 B %E 0 / HANG+ ON 6LIFE 0A
?R1D4 ,JOHN PRAY$ ) ME & SPOKE ^WS (
FAI?4
  ,ALL ?+S D "W TGR = GD4 ,MOM 0 =C$ 6H
! SURG]Y H] ,KANSAS ,C;Y DOCTOR _H
RECOMM5D$--B %E _H X AT ,TORONTO ,G5]AL
,HOSPITAL1 AN EM95T T1*+ HOSPITAL T WAS1
! ,KANSAS ,C;Y DOCTOR TOLD ME LAT]1 !
BE/ PLACE = ALL ( ? 6H HAPP5$4 ,TORONTO1
HE SD1 0 ! ,ME3A (! M$ICAL _W 9 H&L+ ?
K9D ( S]I\S SURG]Y4
  ,I REMEMB]$ ! ORIG9AL DATE ,MOM & ,I 7
6H APPE>$ ON ? TALK %[1 & H[ X _H BE5
PO/PON$ F ,JANU>Y 6,MAY4 ,AL? X 0 AN
UNPL1SANT BIR?"D EXP]I;E1 ,MOM1 N[ AT
HOME 9 ,KANSAS ,C;Y1 B1MS ) PURE DELI<T
T H] ROLL]-COA/] "DS ) 9T]NAL BLE$+ >E
OV]4 ,H] HEMOGLOB9 C.T IS /A# N[1 AT XS
HI<E/ C.T "E1 & DOCTORS SAY H] VISC]\S
VE9S LOOK EXCELL5T4 ,"!'S EV5 EVID;E T
H] LIV] IS REG5]AT+4 ,S \R FAMILY IS
OV]:ELM+LY 3V9C$3 ,ALL ?+S D "W TGR = GD
6^? :O LOVE ,GOD4
  ,9 "S WAYS1 ! :OLE ,TORONTO 9CID5T 0 J
ANO!R SC5E 9 ! LIFE-L;G SAGA ( MY FAMILY
& ALCOHOL4 ,& Z USUAL 9 ! HANGOV]S (
ALCOHOLISM1 ! SITU,N 3T9U$ 6H XS UPS &
D[NS4 ,"O O3URR$ Z ,I RETURN$ 6,KANSAS
,C;Y1 & MY DAD >RIV$ 9 ,TORONTO4 ,I'LL
LET HM DESCRIBE ^? "DS ( CRISIS4 ,! RE/
( ? *APT] IS 8 /ORY2 "PS ( X >E REPR9T$
F 8 J\RNAL4

    ,IF ,ONLY ,I ,CD ,HELP ,H]
  ,X 0 A MATT] ( DAILY TRU/+ ,GOD
6PROVIDE = ,JOYCE'S H1L?4
  ,%E _H HEMORRHAG$ S _M "TS1 & ,I _H _H
6RU% H] 6! HOSPITAL = EM]G5CY TR1T;TS 2C
( H] 9T]NAL BLE$+4
  ,%E WD 2COME NAUS1T$1 !N VOMIT OLD &
NEW BLOOD4
  ,H] HEMOGLOB9 C.T "S"TS 0 Z L[ Z #C.I4
,I'D FEEL S BAD1 S W1K1 UNA# 6HELP H]1
EXCEPT 6PRAY 6,GOD = ,8 H1L+ H& 6T\* H]
BODY & /OP ! BLE$+4 ,I WD LOOK AT H] &
SEE H] SK9 COLOR & F+]NAILS TURN+ S
:ITE1 & !N ,I'D "K %E 0 / BLE$+ 9T]N,Y4
,IF ONLY ,I CD HELP H]4 ,B ,I CD D NO?+
EXCEPT 5C\RAGE H]4 ,& ,I CD PRAY4
  ,X'S BE5 GRT 6BE ) H]1 ESPECI,Y ^! LA/
FEW YE>S1 2C "! HAS BE5 NO ALCOHOL4 ,B
H] H1L? HAS BE5 S BAD4
  ,AMAZ+LY1 ?\<1 %E IS /R;G1 EV5 )!
3/ANT ?R1T ( BLE$+ 6D1?2 %E HAS / BE5 S
/R;G1 S C\RAGE\S4 ,H[ CD ANY"O 2 ? /R;G1
)! ?R1T ( D1? HANG+ OV] H] H1D8 ,H[8
,JOYCE 2LIEV$ T ,GOD WD H1L H] F ALL !
L+]+ E6ECTS ( ALCOHOLISM4
  ,%E 2LIEV$ T ,GOD CD D ANY?+1 & S DID
,I4 ,:Y8
  ,2C MAN1 NATURE1 PROFES.NALS 9 M$IC9E
C D ANY?+ DESCRIB$ 0! LAWS ( PHYSICS1
*EMI/RY1 BOTANY1 M$IC9E1 ETC4 ,B ,GOD C
D ANY?+ EV5 2Y ! LAWS ( NATURE4 ,GOD
P]=MS MIRACLES1 9EXPLICA# MIRACLES4 ,I
2LIEV$ T ! M$ICAL PROFES.NALS WD D ALL
!Y CD 6H1L ,JOYCE2 B 2Y T1 ,GOD WD H
6TAKE OV]4
  ,Y J TAKE "O "D AT A "T4 ,=GET YE/]"D2
DON'T WORRY AB TM4 ,J GET "? TD6
  ,JOYCE'S /R5G?1 C\RAGE1 & FAI? RADIAT$
6O!R MEMB]S (! FAMILY4 ,I CD SEE X4 ,!
DAU<T]S-IN-LAW M>VEL$ AT H] /R5G?4 ,) H]
HEMOGLOB9 S L[1 %E WD / G 6H] FL[] %OP &
"W1 PLUS %E / 8KEPT H\SE0 =! TWO ( U4
,UNSELFI%LY1 %E WD ALW R BUY A GIFT = H]
*N OR GR&*N ?AN = H]F4
  ,ALL ( ^! WOND];L ATTITUDES CAME AF %E
/OPP$ DR9K+4
  ,PRIOR 6T1 :ILE DR9K+1 ,JOYCE 0 J !
OPPOSITE4 ,! ONLY ?+ T MATT]$1 RE,Y1 0
ALCOHOL4 ,ALL "? H] DR9K+1 ,I WD L1VE H]
LOVE NOTES4 ,I WD SIGN !M3 8,JOHN #C3AG1
,I LOVE Y40
  ,! ,BI# V]SE REM9D$ H]--& ME--T IF
,*RI/ DID N -E 6E>? 63DEMN U1 B ONLY
6SAVE1 :Y %D ,I 3DEMN8 ,S ,I DIDN'T4

    ,TORONTO
  ,I H N"E SE5 S _M TUBES ATTA*$ 6"O
BODY4
  ,LOOK+ AT ,JOYCE'S SAD1 SWOLL5 =M1 ,I
FELT S HELP.S4 ,I TOLD H] %E LOOK$
B1UTI;L1 T ,I LOV$ H]1 & "EY?+ 0 GO+ 6BE
ALL "R4 ,I HELD H] H& & TOLD H] ,I 0 GO+
6PRAY ) H]4 ,%E CDN'T SP1K4 ,B %E TRI$
6WRITE "S?+ ON MY H&4 ,I CDN'T "U/& H[
%E CD H ! PRES;E ( M9D 6TRY 6-MUNICATE )
ME1 2C %E 0 S ILL4 ,B T 0 ,JOYCE'S /R5G?
-+ \4
  ,I LE>N$ F ,JOYCE LAT] T %E 0 WRIT+1
8,TAKE ! TUBES \1 PL1SE2 !Y HURT40
,JOYCE 2LIEV$ T IF %E CD ONLY MAKE ME
"U/&1 ,I WD P]SUADE ! DOCTORS 6D X4 ,%E
2LIEV$ 9 MY LOVE = H]1 MY WILL+;S 6D
ANY?+ = H]--EV5 86TAKE ! TUBES \40
  ,B ,I CDN'T FIGURE \ :AT %E 0 WRIT+2 S
,I CDN'T LOOK 96H] EYES4 ,:5 ,I />T$
FEEL+ FA9T1 ! NURSES NOTIC$ X1 (F]$ ME A
*AIR1 BR"\ ME SWEET5$ ORANGE JUICE1 !N
SU7E/$ ,I WAIT \ 9 ! ,,ICU LO2Y ''' ": !
LOV$ "OS ( ,LEON1 ,TOM1 ,PIR*A1 & _M O!R
PATI5TS 7 AL WAIT+4 ,I PRAY$ = !M4
  ,I / D4
  ,:AT IS X L 6G "? ANO!R CRISIS CAUS$
0ALCOHOLISM8
  ,LET ME %>E MY DI>Y 5TRIES F ^? "DS AT
! HOSPITAL3
  --,X'S RA9+2 :5 >E WE GO+ HOME8
  --,JOYCE APPE>+ ON ,,TV4
  --,JOYCE & ,J]RY'S TRAUMA 9 ! AIRPORT4
,MY FE>2 "T 6G 6,CANADA4
  --,NOTICE ( ,JOYCE TAK+ TW5TY UNITS (
BLOOD4 ,I =GET MY FE>4
  --,APP>5T RECOV]Y2 ,J]RY & ,*RIS
RETURN 6,KANSAS ,C;Y4
  --,SETBACK3 M BLE$+4
  --,%UNT OP],N P]=M$4
  --,O!R TRAUMA CASES 9CLUDE ,MR4 ,C41
GR&"F (A "Y MAN "ND ,PAT4
  --,DOCTOR ASSURES U T %UNT W PREV5T M
BLE$+4
  --,ANO!R TRAUMA CASE3 ,TOM1 A GD
,SAM>ITAN :O /OPP$ 6R5D] ASSI/.E 6"S"O &
0 HIT 0A DRUNK5 DRIV]4 ,SKULL FRACTURE1
BROK5 B"OS4 ,CRITICAL4
  --,ANO!R TRAUMA CASE3 E?NIC ,RUSSIAN
FAMILY4
  --,! NURSES >E S WOND];L4
  --,APP>5T RECOV]Y4
  --,M BLE$+4
  --,RU% = TE/S-ANGIOGRAM4
  --,SURG]Y8 ,%UNT CLOS$8 ,WON'T "W4
  --,NO6 ,NO6 ,?"\ 6BE OLD BLOOD4
  --,BLE$+4 ,WAIT+ = DOCTOR 6EXPLA94
  --,TRAUMA CASE3 TWO WOM5 KILL$
0LOCOMOTIVE4 ,!Y 7 HOME.S ALCOHOLICS2 "O
0 A =M] B1UTY QUE54
  --,L"OLY1 & SC>$--B "EY"O IS S NICE4
  --,SONS VISIT4 ,?ANK ,GOD =A FEW H\RS
( PL1SURE4 ,VISIT ,SKYDOME4
  --,APP>5T RECOV]Y2 SONS RETURN HOME4
,I LOVE MY FIVE SONS S M*4 ,WI% ,I 0 A
BETT] DAD4
  --,BLE$+--OLD BLOOD1 ,I HOPE4
  --,TD'S NEWS3 ,MAJOR L1GUE BASEBALL
PLAY]S UNHAPPY1 WANT ,SKYDOME CLOS$ =!
GAME-TOO W9DY4 ,:Y D !Y -PLA9 S M*8
,JOYCE DOESN'T4 ,CRIME 9 ! /REETS4
,N4,Y4 ,YANKEES FIR$ ,BUCKY ,D5T4
,/E9BR5N] / UPSETT+ ! T1M4 ,3/RUC;N
/RIKE4 ,BIG CRANES IDLE4 ,:Y C'T M5
NEGOTIATE 9 E>NE/1 GD FAI?8
  --,CANADIANS ( ALL E?NIC GR\PS T\* Y
:5 !Y GREET Y--SEEM 6LOVE Y4
  --,": IS ,GOD 9 ALL ( ?8 ,ANSW]3 ,"R
SMACK 9 ! C5T]4 ,HE "KS ALL1 IS 9 TOTAL
3TROL4 ,HE "KS ,JOYCE & ALL ! PATI5TS4
  --,! P LOOK D[N 6! FLOOR Z !Y PASS1 B
IF Y SP1K 6!M1 !Y W TALK YR LEG (F4 ,T'S
,CANADA4
  --,JOYCE SNORES1 H] HAIR IS MESS$ UP4
,B %E IS B1UTI;L4 ,%E J LOOKS1 />ES1
LOOKS AWAY4 ,%E WANTS 6G HOME4
  --,EI<? "D4 ,X'S RA9+1 FO7Y1 C'T SEE !
3/RUC;N CRANES4 ,JOYCE IS S PITI;L1 LOS+
BLOOD1 GETT+ M ,,IV BLOOD4
  --,GOD IS 9 3TROL1 EV5 ?\< X DOESN'T
APPE> S "S"TS4
  --,GOD IS 9 3TROL4
  --,R1D ! ,BI#1 2LIEVE1 TRU/1 PRAY1
M$ITATE4
  --,"O NURSE CALLS H] PATI5TS 8,LOVE02
%E'S NICE4
  --,LOTS ( DELU.NS ( REF];E 7,:Y >E !Y
LOOK+ AT ME8 ,2C ,I'M A =EIGN]8 ,2C ,I
C>RY MY ,BI# "EY":8 ,:Y8 ,MY M9D M/ 2
PLAY+ TRICKS4 ,GET /R;G1 ,,JWJ1 YR WIFE
IS SICK4
  --,JOYCE IS /A# ? MORN+--NO BLE$+ LA/
NI<T4 ,ONLY "KS H] "N1 C'T REMEMB] M*
ELSE4
  --,PRAY = ,JOYCE3 ,GOD PL1SE H1L H]2
HELP H] N 6BLE$4 ,MAKE H] 3SCI\S1 AL]T--
9 A3ORD.E ) ,YR W4
  --,NURSES & DOCTORS SAY !Y W -E & GET
ME 6G 9 & SEE ,JOYCE1 B !Y =GET2 !Y >E S
BUSY4
  --,TORONTO ,SUN >TICLE ,JUNE #I1 #AIIJ
AB MAN :O GOT 8 SLEEVE CAU<T 9 ! SUBWAY
& 0 DRA7$1 PUMMEL$1 ?R[N OV] ! GATE 96!
TRACKS & KILL$4 ,^: FAULT8 ,HE 0 DRUNK &
ON DRUGS4 ,:AT T]RI# D1?S & ILL;S DUE
6DRUGS & ALCOHOL4 ,:AT A T]RI# 3DI;N 9
LIFE4
  --,I LOOK \ ! W9D[ A LOT F T5? FLOOR (
! HOSPITAL4
  --,JOYCE TOOK LIQUIDS1 SAT UP SEV5
M9UTES4 ,PRAY %E DOESN'T BLE$ & 3T9UES
6RECUP]ATE4 ,PRAISE ,GOD4
  --,JOYCE LOOKS BETT] TD1 ,SUN"D4
,WANTS ME 6/AY ) H] & N G 6*UR*4 ,,OK--
,I'LL M9I/] 6H]4
  --,LIFE TAKES ON NEW M1N+ :5 "! IS
TRAUMA 9 ! FAMILY4 ,:Y CDN'T WE 2 K9D &
C>+ 9 LIFE )\T TRAUMA8
  --,I SD 6,JOYCE1 8,Y LOOK SIMPLY
M>VEL\S40 ,%E SMIL$4
  --,IN RETROSPECT1 PO9TS ( 3FLICT 9
LIFE SEEM V UNIMPORTANT DUR+ "TS (
TRAUMA4
  --,I HE> M NEWS AB ! TWO WOM5 KILL$
0TRA94 ,"O 0 ?IRTY-TWO1 ! "M ( TWO SONS1
AGES TWELVE & FIFTE51 AN ALCOHOLIC :O
DRANK 6ESCAPE TRAGIC MEMORIES--A =M]
B1UTY QUE5 &A B1UTI;L P]SON :O 5D$ UP ON
! /REETS4 ,%E RAN T[>D ! 5G9E (! TRA9 &
0 FOLL[$ 0ANO!R /REET P]SON1 :O APP>5TLY
0 TRY+ 6PREV5T H] F RUNN+ 96! TRA94 ,BO?
7 KILL$ 7,TORONTO ,/>1 ,JUNE #I1 #AIIJ74
  --,! HOSPITAL G>D5] PLANT$ R[S ( LL
FL[]S AB F\R 9*ES A"P 9 ?IRTY-FOOT R[S
FIVE "DS AGO4 ,EA* "D HE SPR9KLES WAT]
ON !M 7:5 X DOESN'T RA974 ,N[ Y C SEE !
HE>TY "OS &! APP>5T W1K "OS4 ,"S W LIVE2
O!RS W DIE4 ,I WI% ALL ( !M WD LIVE4 ,!
WAT] & RA9 & SUN%9E W HELP !M4 ,LOOS5+ !
SOIL W HELP4 ,"S F]TILIZ] W HELP4 ,B "S
W PROBABLY DIE4 ,:Y8 ,: "OS8
  --,T5 "DS AF ,JOYCE & ,I GOT HOME1 A
"Y MAN ,I'D MET AT ! HOSPITAL-,PAT--LET
ME "K T 8 GR&"F _H DI$4 ,! :YS >E 5D.S4