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  ,:5 !y r1*$ _! room1 ,rudi's h1d 0 ?ro2+4 ,8 "f made hm lie d{n & cov}$ hm ) 8 coat &a blanket4 ,= once ,rudi 0 glad =a *.e 6close 8 eyes & %ut | ! li<t4
  ,:5 he awoke ! next morn+1 he 0 9 a gloomy mood4
  8,h{ >e y feel+80 8 "f ask$ z he sat d{n 2s hm & exam9$ 8 face4
  8,i'm all "r10 ,rudi sd1 ?|< he 0 n at all sure t he was4
  8,i ?"| t td ( all "ds y'd 2 a ll m *e};l10 8 "f told hm4
  ,rudi gave hm a puzzl$ look4
  8,y don't "k :at ,i'm talk+ ab80
  ,rudi %ook 8 h1d4
  ,8 "f look$ z if he mi<t expla9 hmf1 b he *ang$ 8 m9d & simply sd1 8,maybe y w rememb} lat}40 ,!n gr{+ s}i|s1 he ask$1 8,>e y dizzy80
  8,no1 n re,y10 sd ,rudi z he tri$ c>e;lly sitt+ up4 8,:at >e we go+ 6d n{ t we c't g back 6! hospital80 he ask$4
  8,! "o ?+ we "k we c d--c>e = ,jews10 8 "f sd1 & he r1*$ 9 8 %irt pocket & pull$ | a scrap ( pap}4 8,i've made a li/ ( all ~? ,i "k ( :o ne$ c>e4 ,mr4 ,s}dusek c give me ! "ns ( _m o!rs1 ,i'm sure4 ,maybe ? w turn | =! bett}40
  ,!n he a4$1 8,i ?9k "! >e a c|ple m rooms 9 ? ,8palace0' ( |rs t we c cl1n up & use4 ,we c />t |r {n cl9ic4 ,h{ does t s.d80
  8,well1 at l1/ we won't h f> 6walk 6get 6"w10 sd ,rudi4
  8,t's ! _s10 8 "f told hm4 8,i ?9k ,i'll g | & notify ~! on ! li/4 ,!n ,i'll /op 0! ,jewi% ,c|ncil ,(fice 6see ,mr4 ,s}dusek40
  8,let me help10 ,rudi sd4
  8,no1 ,i'd r y re/ a bit m40
  8,i've be5 re/+ all ni<t10 he prote/$4 8,i'm all "r40
  ,8 "f / hesitat$4
  8,2ss10 ,rudi a4$1 8,i'd r 2 do+ "s?+ o!r ?an j sitt+ >.d "h %iv}+4 ,i cd get ,salek 6g ) me1 & we cd notify ! p on ! li/4 ,t way y c g ah1d & get ! li/ f ! ,c|ncil ,(fice4 ,"eybody cd 2 notifi$ ( |r new cl9ic 0? afn40
  8,y're pretty 3v9c+40 ,8 "f gl.ed ov} ! li/ once m4 8,all "r4 ,i ?9k y boys c h&le x4 ,"ey"o on ! li/ is 3f9$ 6! ,jewi% "p ( t{n4 ,y %dn't h any tr|#4 ,j don't g 6any (! non-,jewi% sectors4 ,is t cle>80
  8,don't worry1 papa10 ,rudi sd4 8,i'm n 9 ! mood 6scale any build+s td40
  8,well1 t's a relief40 ,8 "f smil$ wryly at hm4 8,!n ,i c expect 6see y back "h 9 an h|r or s40
  ,2+ |tside did n li<t5 ,rudi's mood z he _h hop$1 = z he walk$1 8 m9d w5t back 6~? "ts 2f ! w> :5 he us$ 6g 6,salek's4 ,"! _h alw be5 cu/om}s go+ 9 & | (! %ops he pass$1 & ea* front w9d{ _h "s?+ 9t}e/+ 6look at4 ,he rememb}$ "o glass %op ": delicate cry/al go#ts cau<t ! li<t & ?rew back _! ra9b{ ( colors 6! sun4 ,"! _h al be5 a clock %op t alw _h at l1/ t5 6fifte5 clocks 9 ! w9d{--all tick+ ! same rhy?m4 ,& "! _h be5 a bak}y4 ,rudi's m|? 2gan 6wat} z he rememb}$ ! smell ( hot sweet rolls4 ,h{ l;g _h x be5 s9ce he _h eat5 any?+ sweet8 ,br1d--br1d & wat}y s|p--t _h be5 x = ov} a mon? n{1 & x look$ l t 0 h{ ?+s 7 go+ 63t9ue4
  ,he 2gan 6hurry pa/ ! des}t$ %ops ) _! brok5 w9d{s1 until "o "picul> %op cau<t 8 eye4 ,x 0 "o (! few t 7 / op51 & an (ficial-look+ docu;t _h be5 po/$ on ! 9side (! front w9d{4 ,he /opp$ 6r1d :at x sd4
  ,,novemb} #aj1 #aici ,foll{+ >e a li/ ( p 6be %ot if any ,jew 9 ? nei<borhood -mits any act ( bellig};e or a7res.n4
  ,"! m/ h be5 ov} a hundr$ "ns on ! li/4
  ,& z ,rudi scann$ x1 he r1liz$ t _m ( !m 7 "ns he recogniz$4 ,"s 7 t1*}s f 8 s*ool4 ,o!rs 7 doctors & lawy}s :o 7 8 "f's frs4 ,"! 7 cl}gym5 & %opkeep}s t he knew z well4 ,! "o ?+ t !y all _h 9 -mon 0 t !y 7 well "kn 9 ! c;y4 ,he r1d on4
  #a4 ,if "! is any de/ruc;n ( ,g}man prop}ty1 no matt} h{ small1 six p w 2 %ot4
  #b4 ,if "! is any act ( viol;e ag/ a ,g}man soldi}1 no matt} h{ small1 ei<t p w 2 %ot4
  #c4 ,=! d1? ( any ,g}man soldi} or civilian1 no matt} :at ! cause1 twelve or m p w 2 %ot4
  ,on ,novemb} #i1 a rock 0 ?r{n : broke ! w9d%ield (a ,g}man vehicle4 ,z a result1 ! f/ six p h be5 %ot4
  ,( ~? f/ six ,rudi _h he>d ( only "o man2 ! o!rs he did n "k4 ,! ?"| !n o3urr$ 6hm--his "f's reput,n cd well place hm on s* a li/4 ,salek's "f 0 a logical t>get too4
  ,he he>d "s"o approa*+4 ,n want+ 6be se5 r1d+ ! po/}1 he />t$ 6move on4
  8,well1 if x isn't ! ,jew boy60 sd ,m5de1 ov}tak+ hm4 8,i see y've r1d |r rules & >e /ay+ | ( ,>yan nei<borhoods4 ,t's wise4 ,i wd hate 6h 6black5 yr o!r eye4 ,b s9ce y're 2+ gd1 ,i won't h to1 w ,i40
  ,rudi manag$ 6%ake 8 h1d4
  8,i'll tell y :at1 ,jew boy10 ,m5de 3t9u$4 8,s9ce y >e 2hav+ yrf1 ,i'm go+ 6rew>d y4 ,i'm go+ 6let y %9e my boots4 ,!y h gott5 dirty walk+ "? ? nei<borhood40
  ,rudi look$ up1 unc}ta9 :e!r ! ,g}man 0 s}i|s or m}ely mock+ hm4
  8,well1 g on10 urg$ ,m5de4 8,y "k ! rules4 ,y wdn't want 6be a3us$ ( 2+ bellig}5t 6a ,g}man soldi}40
  8,i h no?+ 6%9e %oes )10 ,rudi sd4
  8,( c|rse1 y d10 ! ,g}man told hm4 8,take (f yr coat40
  ,?9k+ ag (! li/ t hung 9 ! %op w9d{1 ,rudi obey$4 8,n{ yr %irt10 ,m5de dem&$4 8,"!--t nice s(t %irt w 2 p}fect = bu6+ my boots10 he sd1 & he fold$ 8 >ms & wait$4
  ,0? "t ,rudi felt ne>ly froz54 ,he /opp$ l;g 5 6put 8 coat back on2 !n )! %irt 9 8 h& he knelt at ! ,g}man's feet4
  8,g on10 sd ,m5de4 ,sl{ly ,rudi 2gan 6poli% ! man's boot4 8,no1 no1 no10 sd ,m5de4 8,h{ d y expect 6get any %9e on !m l t8 ,y m/ f/ spit on !m1 !n wipe !m1 spit on !m ag1 & wipe !m (f4 ,rep1t ! process until !y're s b"r ,i c see my reflec;n 9 !m4 ,n{1 g ah1d4 ,i'll tell y :5 6/op40
  ,= m ?an an h|r1 ,rudi knelt 2f ,m5de1 spitt+ on 8 boots & wip+ !m )! %irt4
  8,i ?9k !y're cl1n 510 sd ,m5de at la/4 ,!n he walk$ away4
  ,rudi's m|? 0 dry z du/1 & he a*$ f kneel+ on ! cold /"o /reet4 ,he got up sl{ly4 ,z he did1 he cau<t a glimpse ( 8 reflec;n 9 ! w9d{4 ,he h>dly recogniz$ hmf4 ,he _h n r1liz$ ! damage ,m5de's bl{ _h d"o4 ,! :ole side ( 8 face 0 swoll51 & "! 0 a ga% "u 8 black5$ eye4 ,he /ood s"eal mo;ts1 look+ at 8 4figur$ image4 ,:y8 ,:y _h s* a ?+ happ5$ 6hm8 ,2c he 0 a ,jew4
  ,he 2gan 6"u/& :at ,mrs4 ,s}dusek _h be5 try+ 6tell hm4 ,"h 9de$ 0 "s?+ unlike any?+ he _h "e "kn4 ,he look$ d{n at ! %irt he / held 9 8 h&4 ,x felt wret*$1 & s did he4